Before I start this post by saying how happy I am now that I am a blogger, let me be honest with you. I am still in my corporate 9-4 job as I write this post, and still wishing I could fast forward 3 months to finally quit.
Meaning, I am still on the journey to become a full-time blogger working from home.
But don’t close this page just yet, you will want to read the rest of the story! ?
So, are you ready for some great drama? Because man, I have to open my heart and externalize everything I’ve been feeling and tell you exactly why I’ve decided to quit my job to become a full-time blogger.
EDIT: I’ve decided to wait until my 2 weeks notice to actually build up the courage to post this online. So as you read this post, keep in mind I am finally free, I am finally happy again. Hopefully… I’ll keep you posted.
I’m a Social Media & Digital Marketing Specialist, meaning I manage my clients’ Social Media initiatives at a Digital Marketing Agency in South Florida. To be really honest, I don’t even know how I found this job and how I ended up in Social Media. Granted, I’ve been doing this as a hobby since 2009 (street-team fan blogs, anyone?), and I have a YouTube channel with over 58k and overall over 65k followers across all Social Media channels (as of April 2018). I even worked with Taylor Momsen‘s manager when she started her band The Pretty Reckless back in 2009! I used to manage a fan based website with a friend of mine that had become (at that time) her official personal website, so we would talk with her producers and managers to get the latest updates (and yes, I had the chance to meet with the band and hang out with them once, which was super cool). So I knew what I was doing. My background is in Cultural Production, which is something hard to explain but let me tell you: it has nothing to do with hardcore Marketing & Business, and especially nothing to do with Digital Marketing. ?
When I found this job, I thought it was the Holy Grail of all jobs. At that moment, it was. I’ve learned so much about Social Media, about how the channels behave and how to go around the algorithm. I’ve learned how having a theme is so important on Instagram and how Facebook Ads work. I’m so blessed to have found this job and learned so much. It really made me a Social Media savvy without having to learn it all by myself. The company itself is pretty small, I didn’t have much privacy and we were treated more like family than anything else. Which is good, but it can be pretty bad too, trust me.
It was in February of 2018 that I decided that the moment was about to come. 1 year and 5 months working there were more than enough for me to realize that staying was no longer the right thing for me. My emotional and spiritual health were gone, I felt numb, stressed and completely drained.
My job had taken over my life, everything else was secondary, while making sure my clients were happy was my main priority. I am a believer that if you love what you do, you won’t feel like you’re working. But that was not the case. My house was dirty, unorganized (and only God knows how much a messy house makes me feel out of balance), my marriage was suffering due to all my stress and Holidays and weekends were non existent.
When you work with Social Media, you work 24/7, 7 days a week. You work ALL THE TIME. I came to a point where I was creating around 115 DIFFERENT posts a month and checking ~24 different websites just to check and respond to reviews. The CEO at that time did not believe in buying a software to schedule posts on Instagram, so everything was done manually. It was just too much.
Not to mention my own blog and YouTube channel. It was abandoned, I didn’t have the energy or the time to work on my own Social Media, and my followers were suffering with me, because there was no content, and when I had the time and energy to upload something, it was simply horrible. Poor quality, and you could see on my face that I was unhappy.
THE DAY I’VE DECIDED TO QUIT MY JOB AND BECOME A FULL TIME BLOGGER: The big “that’s it” moment hit me when I got back home from work and laid on the couch for 2 hours, completely numb. I couldn’t feel a thing. I felt like a Dementor (Harry Potter fans, anyone?) had slowly sucked all life out of my body. When I got up, I looked myself in the mirror and I barely recognized the face that was reflecting back at me. I looked dead, and extremely sad. I didn’t even want to take photos because you could see it in my eyes, I was silently screaming for help. I just couldn’t do that with myself, I just couldn’t allow myself to be miserable just because of money. ?
I’ve explained in a different post my story with a boob job and why I got them redone after 1 year of surgery. But I needed basically a whole month off in May to have a Tummy Tuck & redo my boobs, I needed time to recover (and think about my life). My parents were coming from Brazil to take care of me and I had time to just be happy self again. It made sense, more than ever, to quit.
THE BIG QUESTION WAS: How the hell would I make money without a 9 to 5 job? I was at the time (and still am) freelancing as a Digital Marketing Specialist for another company, completely remote, which was great. It was (and it is!) a side money that’s enough to pay the bills.
After a long week of gossip and misery at work, I asked my husband to help me put together my resignation letter. I was ready to quit. I knew it wouldn’t be easy, and I knew I would stutter and not form my sentences right, but it had to be done.
LET’S PAUSE THIS POST FOR A SECOND! ?
My original plan was to qui in the middle of June, and end my journey with that company on June 30th. However, life happens and I just couldn’t take it anymore. I had a vacation planned, I was able to ask for the entire month of May off, but this money was just not worth it anymore. I needed to take care of my mental health and I needed time after my surgery to recover and just be with myself for a change. So I decided to resign on April 24th, with May 1st being my last day at the company. Even after writing my resignation letter, and knowing that I wouldn’t need to worry about that place for an extra 3 months, I started to feel happy again. I had only 1 week left in hell. ??I actually gave only 1 week notice due to my surgery that was schedule for May 9th.
Let’s talk about how awkward it was to turn in my 1 week notice. I was out of breath, vomiting words and I don’t even remember what I said. I just know that my CEO was really sweet about it, he complimented me a lot and he said he was very supportive knowing that I was trying to become a blogger/full-time YouTuber. I was not expecting that, to be honest. Because the last girl (still my friend to this day) that had quit, received an email from him with “Okay.”. He couldn’t care less, but t was different with me.I am leaving on good terms, and that’s one thing that I would recommend everyone to do.
Never burn bridges, no matter how crazy the journey to cross them was. – Renata Ikonora
Be professional about it and if you feel like things are about to explode, just quit. That happened to me, I had a mental breakdown in front of my co-workers that made me realize I should’ve quit a long time ago. You can find a job somewhere else, and if things are getting really difficult, remember that Walmart, Target and general stores are always hiring. It may not be the glamorous Corporate job, but it’ll help you get there eventually.
I’m going to be honest, it is scary to think that I’m going from a fixed salary to not almost not having enough to pay my share of the bills.
What am I going to do now? Give this full-time blogger thing a try. I’ve quit my Corporate job to pursue my dream and I will do whatever it takes to get there. And I know I’ll get there, because I trust my intuition more than anything in this world.
I will keep you all updated.
SOMETHING TO REMEMBER:
One thing is for sure: You can’t put a price tag on happiness and mental health. I am happier than ever and I am in peace knowing that I made a decision that came from my soul and not from others. Do what makes you feel happy and never settle for less than what your heart truly desires. You will feel the side effects sooner or later, like I did. Please don’t do that to yourself. Follow your heart and your intuition, because they’re the only things that’ll take you to where you belong.
Sometimes we need to take 5 steps back to move forward. And I support you, whatever the decision may be. I’m proud of you for being strong and realizing that circumstances have changed. Take a deep breath and never let others dictate your life.